More on clearing past, pissed and parents…

Yesterday I was talking about my ‘leftover’ issues that have surfaced as I travel and ‘work’ in Europe this summer. I love to design my life and so I have changed my life in many ways given up a lot of things in favor of being able to do this. And yet I have had fears and issues arise on this trip that pertain to my family’s past actions and attitudes about me traveling. They hate it, they heap all kinds of judgement and anger on me because for whatever their own reasons are, they think I should not do it, and enjoy it. Since I used to put what others thought and felt above anything I felt myself, they used to get to me and I would not only feel bad, but often not do something that my heart longed for due to their attitudes.
Since I have been changing that, I have had more anger, and judgement thrown my way. I am getting really good at living my life on my terms anyway and not letting their issues affect me, however, I have let it affect me some on this trip and I got upset with myself for it.
As I have said in these other blogs;
why is that coming up again? and Dealing with passive agressive…
Dealing with passive aggressive, or outrightly aggressive and opinionated people who try to control you with their beleifs and attitudes can be challenging and requires developing a strong self love and realization that you are the only one who can know what is best for you and your life will not be the joy filled amazing experience it can be until you put your feelings first.
Be aware this pisses a lot of peole off. Oh well, they make their own choices and have free will to live the way they choose.

You can’t create in their reality and they can’t create in your, UNLESS you give them the power and permission to. Stop now!
When we are pissed at ourselves or anyone else we are wasting our energy, time and resources.
Here is my next realization:

2. If we are spending ANY energy on the past pain, unfairness issues, or anything that does not lift us up and empower us, then we cannot be fully present and feel the joy and vibrancy of life.

By letting the old energies into my vibrational energy field again, I let fears, doubts and uncomfotable energies enter me and it was so uncomfortable I had a panic attack, could not sleep and other issues. It depleted my energy to live this moment my way, it distracted my focus to enjoy the experience i was having, it colored, in a not good way, what I was experiencing and all in all sucked the fun out of my trip.
I use ‘being in the now’ techniques to keep my mind focused on what i am doing, feeling or seeing at the moment. I also meditate on my energy, and focus on asking for help from unseen energies that love and lift me up to enhance the parts of my light body that feels good and is empowering me. The more I focus in on my body’s energy and how it feels, the more I am automatically in the moment and the fears of past feelings, hurts and others opinons cannot affect me.
Also, get out of your head, you mind, your thoughts, they are trouble makers. BE. Just practice being; by feeling energies and knowing the Universe is loving and supporting you to do, be, feel have and experience whatever YOU want in YOUR way. I do too!
Go live YOUR life.

“Why is THAT coming up again?! I thought I had cleared that!

“Why is THAT coming up again?! I thought I had cleared that! Sound familiar to anyone?
This could also be called “Dealing with a passive aggressive personality?” #2. That was a blog I did awhile back that someone commented on and as I responded I thought of how that has been a theme in my life recently and thought I would discuss it some more. CLick the title of the blog and read it and the comments.
So, I have been designing my life to be mobile and still be able to run my business and so I am on a 6 week trip in Europe and still am able to ‘work’. How does this completely other topic relate to passive aggressive personalities? I love to travel and experience other people and places. It inspires me, makes me happy and brings out the best in me…usually! However, this trip, since I arrived here I have had strange bouts of depression, fear, worried feelings and this is not at all how I normally am. I am frustrated because I want to be fully present and enjoy the places, people and experiences, and yet I even had a panic attack a few days ago and I have not had one of those in years!
Why? Well, what I have begun to sort out is that I still have repressed anger towards the people in my life who were passive aggressive, critical, judgemental and cruel, despite all the releasing work I have done. For some strange reason, even though they have traveled extensively themselves, and still can, have a lot of money and can do whatever they like, they hate it when I travel. I have allowed this to affect me, in that even when I would take a trip that i wanted to, there was alwasy an underlying gut feeling or wory about them sitting there being mad at me and how it would surface later. It is almost like alittle kid who knows they are not supposed to do something, but just has to and does it anyway. That is how I felt a lot.

I have come very very far, and yet it still surfaces. My anger was partly due to the fact that i was pissed at myself for not having completely released this. I feel like I am able to live in such joy and connection to source so much of the time, I feel I ’should’ not have to deal with this any more. Sound familiar to anyone? Well, details aside of all i have put myself through, I have realized a few things that I feel will benefit some of you who still deal with self worth issues, others you allow to control you or caring what others think and not living your own life just the way you want to, no excuses.
1. When we allow what others think, or what they said or did to us, to affect how we feel, act and what we do, we are giving our power away. We cannot live life to the fullest and enjoy life if we are living for anyone excpet ourselves. if that makes you squirm, you may want to llok at it. Selfishness is not what we have been taught. Selfishness is caring for yourself, respecting yourself, not being mean and careless to others. Reframe your thinking and put yourself first and life will begin to blossom for you in ways you could not have imagined.
More tomorrow…let me know what you feel and enjoy YOUR day just the way YOU want to !!

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When you have money flowing, and are doing what you love, an go where you love to go. When you have the lifestyle, but not the love…there;s a whole level of life experience that is missing.

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Are you willing to ‘lose’?

Here is a quote from Neale Donald Walsh that got me pondering

“..that you must be willing to lose it all before you can have it all.

What does this mean? It means that until you can let

go of everything, you will find it

hard to hold onto anything.

Detachment is the key. If you are so attached to

something that you are deeply unhappy without it,

then you are not simply attached, you are addicted.”

I am a big proponent of detachment, I learned it from cats…literally. I used to do animal healing, Tellington Touch and communication. I had a pet sitting business for 6 years till i sold it when my twins came along. It was a magical and transformative time for me. It was the beginning of my spiritual path.

I love animals, i had to close a business I had put my heart and soul in to and I was hurt that people would not pay you…it was my first life “deconstruction”. I left L.A. afraid of people and wanted to do something where I had minumum contact with people. I moved to New Mexico, I knew there was more to life than working all the time and being exhausted.(More on that another time…) back to detachment;

Cats have detachment as one of their ’species qualities’. All species have certain qualities they express, like one of dogs is loyalty, easy to see, huh!? Well, the beauty of detachment (and the reason many people do not like cats), is that they are experts at not being attached. They can ask for what they want, they can want to be loved, fed, pet, played with, but on their terms. When they are done, they go off on their own. No attachments.

We would be so much happier if we were easily able to ask for what we want and yet not be at all attached to the outcome. It sounds odd, try it with a few minor things in your life. When you let go of how, when and if it is going to happen, even though you see and ask for it clearly ang with passion, you are happy all throughout the process. You stay happy whether it comes today or never. You feel happy because of what is inside of you, what you choose to feel and think. Not because of things outside of you.

Being willing to ‘lose’ it all, means you accept that everything is an illusion, always changing and there is always more & better available to you. Sometimes losing turns out to be the best thing that ever happened. Give it a chance, look for the ‘gift in the problem’s hands for you’ (that was my blog “Illusions, problems and gifts” the other day, read it by clicking here).

Tomorrow we will talk about KNOWING; knowing you know everything, can have anything, whatever you have asked for is on it’s way… because his is another key to staying happy and harmonic! As soon as you decide you really know you can have, be or do something, it is yours…right then!

Everything is ours for the choosing

I wanted to share some more insights from the people who have taken the Spirit of Money class…which is now selling like hotcakes on audio! ( go to http://bethespiritofmoney.com/) I cannot stress enough what an unusual and completely new way of looking at money this is. I am totally rewiring my own money thoughts, feelings and pathways!

Here’s an email from a class participant and my answer…enjoy and let me know what you would like to hear more of!

“I loved in session #4 where Amy you discussed how it is assumed that we already know everything is ours for the choosing.

Also I loved the phenomenal clearing Nan did. In the meditation I felt very clearly that I had a ball in my chest that was the whole Universe and it just got bigger and bigger and radiated in all directions from my body - it felt so wonderful. I laughed the other day when I found the perfect parking spot and gave thanks - I then realized no wonder I got it as I carry the whole Universe inside me!

I would like to know any ideas you have for my making practical use of both of these new ideas. I was given the gift of the Universe for a reason, i just don’t know how to make best use of it. Thanks.”

Nan: “l Love your experience…and yes, you are the whole Universe, and keeping that thought, concept, fresh in your mind and being is a very powerful. It means you have everything you want, it means you are the creator of your world and it means you have all the resources available to you …now all you have to do is keep that AWARENESS present in your day to day.
Being in the moment is about tuning in to how you feel, who you are, your energy and how it fluctuates. If you keep your awareness just outside of your mind, you will be in the moment, not controlled by the moment.
When you operate/act/think from the space “I have and am everything”, then you operate/act/think differently…and as you do that more and more you trust more and more that great things just show up…and now you are the space- the now - to see them and join them!
Mostly we think we do not get what we want and there is lack because we are so busy worrying that we do not see and feel the awesome opportunities that show up almost every moment of the day! Getting out of your mind, realizing you are not your thoughts, body or even your emotions, you are the driver, the energy, the fuel the spirit behind that and you can be in control of your thoughts, body or even your emotions.
So practical use is to infuse your daily life with this awareness and then enjoy the ride…moment to moment, in the knowing you are the Universe and you are expanding it and can enjoy it every moment. Way fun, huh?!
If you find you are interested in the group coaching we can get into specifics just for you!”

A reminderl we have the Spirit of Money Small Froup Coaching starting on August 14th. This will be truly amazing, because the participants will be able to deal personally with their specific issues. Also we will take working with your personal money management team (which we met in the Living the Spirit of Money: phase of integration” class….yes that is also available on audio now, go to http://bethespiritofmoney.com/integration/ ) to a whole new level! It is going to be a phenomenal ride!

Thanks to everyone who has experienced these classes and is so generous in sharing their powerful experiences…this is soooo fun!

Come join the ride!

illusions, problems and gifts

I am re-reading “Illusions” by (the guy who wrote ‘Jonathan Livingston Seagull). It is a wonderful little book and it has been years since i read it. As usual it has wonderful insights for me!

Here is one quote that hit home for an issue I am dealing with personally at the moment:

‘There is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in it’s hands… You seek problems because you need their gifts”

I have believed fo a LONG time that all situations have a gift in them. I was told once, after my daughter Jordan died, to ‘look for the diamond’ in the situation’. I always do. Sometimes it is easier than others to find it, sometimes there are many and they reveal themselves over time.

Perhaps you have a perceived problem at the moment, a challenge, and if you ponder on this it will bring you clarity as well. Look for the gift. It is why you created the issue in the first place.

Love the day and love yourself. It’s all an illusion anyway!

Anger…manage, supress or let loose?

How do you handle, approach or ‘feel’ about anger? I was taught it was ‘inappropriate’, so I always felt uncomfortable with it. I rarely had much, thankfully, but when things happened in my life, like my daughter dying, and I had anger, I had no idea what to do about it. In fact I felt worse because I thought I was doing something wrong by feeling anger, so I was stuck between a rock and a hard place!

Over the years i have had many different perspectives on anger. Ignore it, avoid it, let it go and not deal with it, feel bad about it…on and on. Now I am choosing to disempower it (take back my power form it) by seeing it as “just a feeling” and nothing more. No judgement, no attachment, no pushing it away.

Those who hurt others only do so because they fear, they know not how to ‘control’ their own reality, their own thoughts and create their own happiness, and so they try to control, blame and hurt others.
The best we can be and do is to be totally ourselves, and love who we are, cherish our uniqueness and fully realize that we are beautiful, no matter what anyone else says or does.
Removing our focus from the pain, unfairness, hurt, fear and anger that others have and that we have in response to what others do and say, relieves the power.
Feeling the pain or anger fully, allows us to let go of resistance, which means that there are no ‘energy hooks’ in our system for the pain to cling to, attach to. Interestingly enough when we allow ourselves to feel the hurt, anger or fear, it moves, and then transmutes…it cannot cling to us if we do not have any emotion or reaction to it.
I have felt it difficult, in the past, to allow myself to feel these things, fearing that it would make it stronger, and create more pain. Now I realize, when i do not look at it, if I stay too “zen” and calm, letting go the hurt each time it appears, it never really moves on. I have let it deplete me, instead of depleting it.
I would rather let it move through me, feel it fully and then let it go, because then i can move beyond the anger, the pain the apprehension of “what next…?”
I can be more fully free if I allow myself to feel what i feel. I do not have to condone it, agree with it, like it or create any more of it. However, an emoiton is energy, and when we resist it, it does not move, it cannot transform into somehting else…which is what we want it to do.
Transform pain, anger, fear and guilt in to joy and love by allowing it to move through you, be kind and loving to yourself. Tell yourself you are wonderful, and do not add to the experience by feeling stpid or bad that you are feeling anger. Do not judge yourself, or anyone else involved. SImply feel what you feel, and then go do somethign loving and relaxing or fun for yourself.
Once we allow the energy of anger, powerlessness, injustice, frustration, fear of any kind to move through us, we are FREE to move in to any vibration we choose. CHOOSE!!! I love choosing for myself, don’t you?! Well I choose, right now, to always acknowledge my feelings, and experience them quickly and in the moment, so they do not grow, fester and cling to me. I choose to free up my energy I am giving to any negative emotion, person or past experience (or future feared one for that matter!) and I CHOOSE to use my full energy in fun, love, joy and adventure, kindness, creating, spreading light and laughter and self-empowerment!
Come join me now!!!
Love Nan

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Have you been allowing them to assist you? Do you give over your money qworries, job hunt, customer search or marketing ideas to a team that works while you sleep, eat, vacation or play with your kids?

Sound too good to be true? It’s not!! Really! I have just discovered this myself, and it is truly amazing and available to everyone!

Tuesday evening I taught the amazing “Living the Spirit of Money’ phase of integration” class with Amy Grant of newsuccess.org. In the class we did the most stunning and powerful activations and clearings. These are energetic attunements and installations like you have never seen, heard of or experienced, This approach to money has never ever been shared and it is transforming lives in minutes!

One guided activation I did with everyone, and had done earlier that day with myself, was called “Meeting your personal Money management team” (PMMT for short). We work with energy, because it is the source and the essence of all that is, so it is the smiplest and easiest way to create, change and direct your life.

There are unseen energies all around and no matter what your particular word for them is, Angels, Guides, your higher self, God, source, quantum particles, they are conscious, sentient and ever present. And these energies are benevolent and ready and willing to assist you. In fact they are almost waiting around for you to ask for them to help and to allow their help. When you ask, it is given, ever heard that? Well, energies that are not in physical dimensions are not limited by things like, time, space and rest. So once you call in and assemble your personal money management team, they can be workig for you 24/7!

You can allow them to help with all kinds of thing, get creative! Here are a few, tell me if you come up with more!

Finding a new job, attracting perfect customers, finding new office space/emplyees…anythign to do with your business, finding loans, invesotrs and money for all kinds of projects. Bringing in new customers, showing you ways to work less hours and make more, getting a raise …it goes on and on! Are you getting the picture yet?

So now you turn most of your worries and jobs over to your energetic PMMT…what do you do? Well, you enjoy life and stay present in the moment and in your so you can be totally AWARE when the opportunities and resources present themselves. You follow the trail of clues that your PMMT lays out for you, and take the inspired actions!

You can meet and install your own PMMT now, get the audio of the class here:

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